Damn. ewan ko bakit ako ganito ngaun...
I now know kung anong feeling ng pinagpapalit kahit sa simpleng bagay.
aw. haay. sa totoo lang. nagseselos ako. it's wierd kc nagseselos ako sa laro. damn. badtrip.
bakit ba ko ganito? Dahil sa Laro magseselos ako? But yeah I'm wierd. totoo. feeling ko may kahati ako sa oras nya. Di naman kc siguro ako magtatampo kung naglalaro sya tapos bigla akong tumawag eh sana unahin nya namn ako. pero hindi eh. di ganun ang nangyari. kaya medyo nasasaktan ako. yun. yun ang totoo. actually, kanina din nasa bahay nila ako. ksi gusto ko sya makausap at makasama pero pagdating ko. wala naglalaro pa sya. pero siguro nga di nya ineexpext na darating na ako. pero nagsabi naman na ako na malapit na ako. So ayun nagstay lang ako sa bahay nila na hindi sya masyadong nakakausap. so ayun ineexpect ko na bukas bibigyan nya ako ng oras. pero ayun may meeting sila. damn anu nnmn gagawin ko? I need to adjust and to accept na wala. wala akong magagawa. Friends nya un. lagi naman nya akong kasama. pero lately kasama nga d namn kmi nakakapagusap ng maayos. I just need more time from her. kc anu na sched nmin? after bukas sunday na. busy sa church after that kailangan asikasuhin ko ang school ko. so may time pa? tapos summer camp na. asan na ung oras nmin para sa isa't isa?

Labels: damn, emotions, hurt, jealous

Yesterday, I went to MOA with my aunt. I travelled alone from Antipolo to Pasay, Rotonda. When I arrived to Santolan station the station was closed, all of the stations are closed so I travel to Rotonda by riding a PUJ and bus to meet my aunt there. After Rotonda we went to MOA and walk for so long. We saw a bass guitar which cost for 28,000 pesos, it is so damn expensive. (I want to have that.) While we were in MOA I had a problem with my baby. I really don't know what to do. I burst out my feelings and I gone to far, I know I am wrong for what I had done. I don't want what happened. Then after few minutes we fix our problem in a nice way. Around 4:30 pm we went to Molino, there has no signal there. In Molino I played the game Left 4 dead while waiting. After my time had end I sat outside the supermarket near the parking area ALONE. I am really thinking of HER in that very moment, I wish that she was with me by that time. I really miss her. She was in our Church by the time that I was alone. After my aunt was finished playing she decided to go home in Cavite. My baby was still in the church, while waiting for her text I watched Nacho Libre in HBO. When the hands of the clock turned 9:00 pm, she said that she will go home. I expected that because I am REALLY WORRIED. Then she texts me that she will stay for a while because they are having a conversation about important matters. (I do not know what it is.) So I really get mad because it is getting late and she is not still in her house, what if something wrong happened to her. Right? I was just worried. Also she did not do what she said. I am also wrong because I did not listen to her side. But after a few minutes we fixed our problem. ( I am really weak when it comes to her, and she knows it.) After that she did not reply on my texts. I think she is already asleeo right now. I love her so much and when I had done anything wrong I really blame my self, because I know that I am so wrong. If anything miserable happened to her and I was not there I cannot forgive my self and I will not have pity on my self for I know that I did not do anything to help her. That is why I am always worried when I am not with her, I am not near to protect her but I will do everything to protect her even with my last breath and do my part for her. Because I love her so much and I know that YOU cannot surpass my love for her, for I will love her more that YOU can do.

Labels: attitude, changes, forgiveness, love

Nagpafacial ako kanina. nakakabaliw ang araw. bad3p. namimiss ko na sya. Namimiss ko na din ang mga kaklase ko. totoo nga na kahit anong tigas ko mamimiss ko padin sila. kahit na hindi ako umiyak nung grad namin. sa totoo lang ngaung linggong 'to, naramdaman ko nawalan ako ng isa pang pamilya. NAWALA ung mga taong NAGPAPASAYA sa akin pag dating ng umaga, kahit na napakalungkot ko noong kinagabihan. Pakiramdam ko wala SILA. Ang hirap din pala noong hindi ko na sila nakikita. Mabuti nalang andyan SYA.

Pamilya talaga ang turing ko sa kanila. Dahil SILA ung mga taong malalapitan mo talaga pag kailangan mo. Sila yung mga taong hindi ka iiwanan, ung mga taong alam ang ginagawa nila kahit parang hindi na. Sila yung mga taong NAPAMAHAL sa akin at alam kong MINAHAL din ako. Sila ung mga taong MASAYA kasama, kahit walang pera masaya padin. Sila ung nagturo sa akin ng kahalagahan ng samahan. Mga kaibigan mahal ko kayo. Hindi ko nasabi 'to noon sana alam nyo un.

Mas maiintindihan mo kami kung maging parte ka namin. Maiintindihan mo ang totoong kahulugan ng pagsasamahan kung kilala mo kami. Pwede naman na maging parte ka namin, basta marunong ka lang MAKISAMA dahil un ang mahalaga. Pero wag mo kaming PAPLASTIKIN dahil yun ang ayaw namin. Kahit hindi ka namin kaklase o ka-batch welcome ka, kahit sino ka pa man, welcome ka sa PAMILYA NG IV-LOVE. Sya nga parte namin eh, kaya kilala na nya kami. Kaya ikaw pwede din.

Labels: malungkot, masaya, nagmamahal

wooh. kinakain ako. nakakabadtrip. hahaha. bakit ganto. hahaha
pero ok lang. at least meron na akong blog. hahaha.
testing lang.

Labels: nagaaral, nalilito